The Husband Dream

I had a dream last week that my husband was cheating on me with... me.  But the me he was cheating on me with was an over simplified, shallow, superficial shell of who I am.  Their affair was of a carnal nature as affairs usually are.  I remembered thinking I could never be her.  I could pretend to be her for a while, but how empty would that be?  I wanted peace in our relationship, but not at the cost of my soul.  So, he decided he was going to divorce me, and marry her.  He told her the reason is because I beat him over the head with the bible (but I also knew it was the shallow sex life).  We were all going to convene in the basement with our families and he was going to tell me the news.  I knew this because I was also her (a remnant of myself).  I couldn't believe he would leave everything that I am for everything that she isn't.  The dream ended with us all sitting there waiting for him to say something and I woke up.  

This dream was foretelling some issues my husband and I had over the weekend.  I won't go into detail.  We're going through the thick.. again.  Anyone else struggle with cyclical relationship issues? I'm sure we're not alone;-). It's hard though... Paul was right when he said relationships would bring unnecessary trouble!  But when it's good it's good right?  Sometimes I wish I could trade stories with someone else during these times.  I could experience their hangups and they could experience mine from a fresh perspective.  Sometimes these issues feel like such reruns.  Like, been here done that, bored as heck!  It's just the nature if two different minded people trying to sing in harmony.  Sometimes we just don't agree on the song or the sound and why it should be this way or that.  It's stupid but it's real.  I want the song to be deep, authentic and warm to touch.  I dislike, am repulsed by the shallow things of our modern age.  The era of  the sleazy, cheap and profane.