Dreams- 4/25

(I'm not promoting this book, I just like the cover) 

For those who question dream interpretation and think it might be too "mystical" or too "new age" for Bible believers, let's go back and examine that Bible  again.  While we should always be cautious and mindful of what we engage in we should also keep in mind that new age concepts and practices often come out of the Bible.  They are profaned by filtering God out of the picture.  Where do you think Ekhart Tolle got his New Earth idea?  Don't even get me started on Ekhart Tolle.  How he managed to write an entire book on the "power of now" still confounds me to this day, and yes, I used to buy into all that jazz;-).  Let's all pray for him and his enormous following. That they would know the power of the living God and be introduced to the whole message and the truth!

They said to him, “We have had dreams, and there is no one to interpret them.” And Joseph said to them, “Do not interpretations belong to God? Please tell them to me.” Genesis 40:8

“‘And in the last days it shall be, God declares, that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh, and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams;  Acts 2:17

And we impart this in words not taught by human wisdom but taught by the Spirit, interpreting spiritual truths to those who are spiritual. 1 Corinthians 2:13

And he said, “Hear my words: If there is a prophet among you, I theLord make myself known to him in a vision; I speak with him in a dream.  Numbers 12:6

In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falls on men, while they slumber on their beds,  Job 33:15

But there is a God in heaven who reveals mysteries, and he has made known to King Nebuchadnezzar what will be in the latter days. Your dream and the visions of your head as you lay in bed are these:

Daniel 2:28

And God spoke to Israel in visions of the night and said, “Jacob, Jacob.” And he said, “Here am I.”  Genesis 46:2

  I've had a couple of interesting dreams the last two nights.  Interesting to me anyway.  You know, some dreams are entirely personal and others are prophetic.  I'm realizing how bad I am at interpretation though.  If it's not in my face obvious I'm fairly clueless.  In these moments I long for the counsel of Daniel (otherwise known as Belteshazzar;) or Joseph! 

4/24  I'm with my mom at a grocery store (similar to Sprouts on Drake).  We split up, then I realize she's looking for me.  I see her but she's far away.  I start walking faster to catch up but she leaves the store and walks down the way and into a coffee shop (that does not exist near Sprouts).  I can tell she's still looking for me as she walks in there.  As I'm following her I hear someone singing hallelujah yeah, hallelujah yeah really loud.  The sound echoes against the brick building and as I enter the coffee shop I announce " here I am" in a humorous way, as if to indicate that my presense always preludes with a heavenly announcement.  Alan Horvath is the barista and he laughs at my arrival getting the joke of course.  It feels like I've known him forever (I just love that guy).  

Correlation or coincidence?  I remember thinking it was pretty strange for somebody to be singing hallelujah so loudly in public.  Alan Horvath is one of my favorite teachers on youtube and he's really into a specific interpretation of the bible called the Hallelujah Scriptures.

Second scene- (Back at the house I grew up in) I'm waking up early in the morning and I notice a fish tank (I've never owned a fish tank) sitting to my left on the ledge of my headboard.  I feel like it's going to fall into the bed so I reach up to move it back when I see a snake!  I also notice some other living creature and as I look to observe it it turns into a small Giraffe!  Then I see a smallish cat that I thought was a wildcat for some reason.  I tried to get out of my bedroom and shut the door  to prevent the wildcat from attacking my real cat!  I ran upstairs and there was Alan Horvath again!  He was dating my mom.  I guess he was getting up early to leave.  I told him about the snake and he asked if I had a fish tank (implying that that could be the cause of the snake).  I said yes, and he looked at me like yah, that's probably why. - End dream-

Uhm... any takers?  I know that fish can represent spirit or souls, so it could be saying that since I'm dwelling in God's realm the serpent (the enemy) is lurking around waiting to attack?  To me, giraffe's represent an innocent animal that could be easily subject to prey because they don't have a lot of defense mechanisms.  Wildcats are obviously scary predators... The room (my room) was filled with the innocent and the blood thirsty, and I was seeking the wise counsel of Alan Horvath.  

On a larger scale this dream could represent the current state of my world or the  world.  The powers of good and evil  co-existing and my seeking (Alan H. Could represent God) higher wisdom while I'm here.  And he's telling me to be aware because while I'm living in this current reality evil will always be lurking in the shadows...

4/25  I dreamed I was working in someones house, when one of my clients (whome I've had in multiple dreams) comes over and is surprised to see me there.  For some reason I get really dizzy and can hardly move.  She helps me up and I just apologizing saying "I don't know what's wrong with me, I can hardly move, this is so weird...".  Then, I'm working my way through this house and it just keeps getting bigger and there's more and more flights of stairs.  There's people everywhere and they're really nice.  Everyone is really lively and many people seem to be working like it's an office out of a house.  I'm actually having a good time, but I'm working and I'll never get done!  One guy is at his desk and asks if I'll clean up around his desk.  Then he tells me I need to put all the cups in the dishwasher.  At this point I get mad and I'm like "no dude, you don't understand.  First of all I don't DO that and second of all I WAY under bid this job".  He was just looking at me confoundedly.  I told him "look, everyone here has been really nice, but we just did not realize how big of a job this is".  He understood, but he's not the boss.  My helper decides to leave and I consider leaving too because I clearly under bid this job!  It ends with us considering the weight or reprecussion of just leaving, as this is not something we would normally do.

--End dream-

Side note- the client who keeps appearing in my dream is notably Christian (a rare phenom around here).  I don't often think about or dream about any of my clients so this is kind of unique that she keeps appearing.  

The size of the job compared to our bid felt like in reality that it would be pro bono  if we were to stay, but at the same time, our job wasn't life altering in any way so why would we do it for free?  Ya know?  Perhaps the dream is referring more to just being over my head in terms of really trying to understand God.  It feels like a job researching all the streets(interpretations) and avenues(theories) of understanding and percieving the angles of God.  The deeper I dig the "bigger" it gets.  It's hard work!  

Dreams: past and present

    Let's talk about dreams.  Not the dreams about personal success and worldly attainment, that's for another post;-). Let's talk about our nightly escapades into the unknown .  When I was young, I didn't remember my dreams.  I'm sure I had them, but didn't try to remember them.  When I was a teenager I took some dream interpretaition workshops and analyzed my dreams from a secular, new age type framework.  Then, I went through a long period where I thought dreams were just meaningless and nonsensical undigested thoughts and projections carried over from our daily impressions.  Regardless of how I percieved dreams and their meaning, I always had them!  As a teen and into my early 20's I was into new age ideas (yes, this was before it became mainstream).  I used to have this recurring dream of a tsunami.  Keep in mind this dream started BEFORE I ever even saw the ocean!  This dream continued for years.  I didn't understand it at all.  There's always been an underlying element of tumult and ungroundedness (Kabbalists might attribute this to the letter M in my name) in my life so I attributed it to my general aloofness.  Looking back with the perspective of God giving us warning dreams, I can see how he was warning me, BUT I couldn't have understood at the time what it was about.  Fast farward to 2011.  My mom had been working HARD on me to get me to see that God was the God of the Bible, and not the God that I created in my head.  You know, the one who just kind of agrees with everything WE think?  Yah... anyway, I finally crucified my ego and actually asked God to come into my life and reveal himself to me (the way Christians do).  To me, this was HARD.  I had embraced eastern religions and the new age concept God which required nothing of me, and certainly implied that God was already inside me, as well as in everything.  The effect of thinking this way is 1) you don't actually know God at all and 2) you become very egotistical!

  Anywho, shortly after I "broke" myself and prayed this really embarassing (I thought) prayer, I had a dream.  It was scary.  I was in this dessert like town with people milling about.  Suddenly a bus came by and everyone got on it but me.  I missed it!  I was all alone in this town, and there was this sense of impending doom.  I was freaking out, when by some miracle the bus came back and my moms old hippy boyfriend (who I knew was attending church) came out and said he got a ticket for me.  I was SOOo relieved!!  The dream was a definite warning to me, that if I didn't get serious about God I would be left behind.

  For two years God made my life a living nightmare.  I believe he was testing and refining me.  THEN, he woke me up!  When he woke me up he started to urge me to finish reading the Bible.  I had only read about half way through at this point. Side note about me: I'm easily distracted and not good on follow through.  I start many projects and move on before they're finished.  Know yourself, right?  Anyway, I decided to start reading 15 minutes every night.  Something I could commit to.  15 minutes turned into 30, and eventually I finished it (side note to anyone who has a hard time reading the old testament: The Bible in 90 Days on audio is awesome.  You can purchase it in segments from Itunes).  I quickly realized that if we haven't read the entire word of God we are CLUE LESS!  I guess that's what he was trying to tell ME.. haha!  Now, I'm trying to spread that message.  Church is a good thing, but just going to church is not enough.  

  Fast foreward again to the most recent warning type dream.  I was at work when one of my clients told me the state of Texas was under water.  I knew it was the END of days so to speak, and I said "It's here".  Then I was outside.  The oceanic water was to my right.  Suddenly I was with my mom and sister and we had tube type rafts (side note: I HATE rafting) and was getting into a river.  I had no clue what would happen.  My husband showed up but didn't have a raft.  I knew my raft could never carry both of us, but I was torn between survival and helping him.  Obviously, this dream was a warning to my husband, but it was also a reassurance to me that I was progressing in my security with God.  Now, I have many dreams, but these are just the ones that are the most significant and memorable.  There was also the dream where God revealed to me that I need to share the Bible with people.  I've had many packing dreams lately, even though I'm not planning any trips in the natural world.  I had one dream very recently that I was actually in heaven getting prayed for.  And another one where I was preparing for a wedding.  That was a cool dream.  I couldn't tell who was getting married but the setting for the wedding was a vintage/farm type wedding which is my favorite setting for a wedding.  I also recall Jesus speaking.  It seemed like he was saying vows, but I couldn't remember a word he said.  The dream ended very vividly with a silver bowl with the number 12 in it.  I've got a few ideas of what that could symbolize, but if anyone has any insight, do share!  There is much talk on youtube about the groom (Jesus) coming for his bride (the church), which is all Biblical of course but people are having dreams and visions like crazy:-o My sister said "well it's no wonder you're having these dreams because you're watching all these videos and filling your head with this stuff".  I can see why she would think that but what about all the dreams I had before?  I don't know about you but I can't force myself to dream something just because I want to.  In fact, I'd love to have cool wedding and rapture dreams every night but I don't!  Many nights my dreams are the usual random boring type despite all the info I'm listening to. They're kind of disappointing actually!  Many nights God has spoken Hebrew words in my dreams.  This is significant to me, and has lead me to research the Jewish roots of Christianity, taking me back to the ancient paths.  Alan Horvath and Mark Biltz have become great sources of info for me because of these dreams.  I'm learning some Hebrew and travelling all the way back to God's original perspective, language and calendar.  It's pretty cool the way God is actually using my dreams to guide me.  We don't randomly assign meaning to life.  God assigns meaning, and we aquire knowledge of meaning by knowing Him.  Happy dream trails friends!  

This is a 5 minute video about the Hebrew Roots of the Aaronic Blessing.  It's powerful.  Please watch it!

https://youtu.be/7U6js9OkV2c

The first video led me to the teachings of Rico Cortes.  I know most people don't have the endurance to sit through this entire series but 6 & 7 are SO amazing.  It makes the most sense to start from the beginning but if that's not going to happen, watch 6 & 7.  God is SO interesting you guys!  If you don't think God is interesting you just don't know enough...  If you've ever wondered about the origins of sound and music this is a great one to watch!

https://youtu.be/DeKG5TexA0s?list=PL126472709CF88208

P.s.  Some people have this idea that going back to the Jewish roots is somehow "un-Christian". I'd just like to remind them that Jesus was a Jew.  The first "Christians" were Messianic Jews.  His intent was not to un-Jewify people.  The Christianity we have today is a highly processed version of the heirloom variety, so to speak.  If we want absolute truth I believe we need to go all the way back to the original.  All that said,  I am not convinced that any one denomination has all the answers and I do not subscribe to or belong to any denomination.  I don't need a label to identify myself with God.  I will listen to teachers from any and all denominations to get a full perspective.  I belong to God, and believe His word.  His word is not bound by the limitations of man's perception or understanding.  

Holy Roller for Holiness

  I've been deep in reflection lately, while continuing to exist in real life;-). I've been really examining what it means to live a holy life.  Many things come to mind.  God's reality is holy ground.  That is why he gives us the Ten Commandments, so that we can attempt to know his standards and his ways.  Also, these are practices in obedience.  In our modern society it's easy to dismiss God's presence in our lives and omniscience altogether much less his requirments... the Ten Commandments!  The churches don't even talk too much about them anymore.  Instead, they pretend that ALL law was nailed to the cross and that all we need to do is let Jesus love us.  That's so abstract to me.  If that were so, then why did Jesus give us the ten commandments?  We should be so lucky that the penalty for not obeying ALL of the commandments and laws of the old testament were nailed to the cross.  To me, this doesn't mean that God doesn't still have very high standards and hopes for humanity represented in his laws, but simply he knew that men weren't capable of keeping all the laws, AND many of the laws were put on or added to the Jewish beople BECAUSE of their disobedience.  It was a punishment.  So anyway, I think it's pretty clear that the new standard is AT LEAST following the ten commandments.  Alan Horvath always refers to our walk with God as pitching our tent with Elohim.  I really like that analogy and have been examining what it truly means.  I am just a common person.  I am not some great soul winning revivalist or faith healer.  I certainly can't raise the dead with my faith, but what can I do?  I can read His word and try to follow what it says;-). 

  Everyone is going to have a different ratio of strengths and weakness's within keeping the ten commandments.  Some are holy rollers of the Sabbath and keep it sacred.  Others couldn't fathom lying or stealing, but find it difficult to resist commiting adultery (even of the imagination) or find the pleasures of this world highly alluring (idolatry).  Living a holy life is committing ourselves to keeping the ten commandments, because these are the parts of ourselves  God wants us to overcome.  The flesh!  The world!  I am human.. surprise!  I have strengths and weakness's within the ten commandments like everyone.  I would say my strengths are not murdering;), stealing, lying, coveting or idolatry.  In general I honor my mother, although sometimes I call her a psycho (all in good fun;).  I don't worship any other Gods, or any graven images. Commiting to keeping Sabbaths is gut wrenchingly difficult.  I am safe with most Sundays (even though I think it's actually Saturday) I spend most of my day with the Lord.  Sometimes I'm freaking out because I don't know what I should be doing.  Sometimes I'm just resting.  Sometimes I'm reading the word or listening to it (something I already do almost everyday anyway).  I've also been known to paint a bathroom, clean the house, do laundry, cook.. or reluctantly go to a birthday party (who has a birthday on Sunday?!?) .. I know, I'm a Sabbath loser:-(. It's hard, but I want to commit. I think it would be really good to also add fasting to the Sabbath to up the anti (hard!).  I am guilty of accidentally taking the Lord's name in vain. I need to step back and take a mouth-a-lizer.  And the juicy one ADULTERY.  I have never cheated on my husband in the flesh.  We have had a rocky 11year relationship.  I can't say I've never cheated on him in thought or in dreams.  Recently I've asked the Lord to watch over my dreams and keep them kosher.  I am careful not to let seeds of desire grow, as they can so easily, especially when couples are going through rough patches.  There's my honesty!  Recently, my desire to grow in my relationship with Jesus has superseded my desire for anything else, and that's how I like it.   It is really the solution for every weakness, I believe.  Jesus is calling us to be holy.  Are we listening?

http://youtu.be/AAvbKoY56zc

The Introvert Advantage

  My whole life I've been an introvert.  I've had periods where I came out of my shell and engaged more with the world, but deep down I was always naturally inclined to be in my own head, researching, dreaming, doing things in silence.  Most of my life this natural inclination has seemed like a curse.  I've always felt different, like an outsider.  I had to force myself to enjoy socializing.  Engaging with the world took more energy than it "should".  Caffeination was necessary...  unlike many introverts, I didn't beat myself up about it.  I didn't force myself to go out there and 'get in the game' and go against my natural inclinations too much, because on some level I knew the world was messed up.  The mentality was just off.  You know?
  It is only during this phase of my life that I recognize the advantage I have as an introvert.  First of all it is well documented in the Bible that God hates the world (worldly mentality, customs, celebrations, aspirations).  He makes it very clear that this Earth world is ruled by Satan the deceiver, and that in order to LIVE in HIM we have to forsake the "world", forsake the superficial "lives" we worked so hard to attain and follow HIM.  He wants us to live an entirely different life than the "world".  Introverts.. hello!  Ok, so we naturally want to withdraw from the world.  And because we do this we're more likely to acknowledge and get to know God.  There's certainly a place for the extrovert who knows God.  I mean let's be real, if we had to rely on introverts to get the word out Christianity wouldn't exist today!  Hah.. but back to the introvert advantage here.  Introverts are more likely to have a natural detachment from the world and this is a essential.  He is returning for a spotless Bride, who takes the time to get to know him.  I love my family and my cat but I am SO out of here like lightning if the opportunity presents itself.  C'ya!  Attached to NO THING.  This world brings me little pleasure.  I dwell in reality.  The reality is that we are living in darkness on the Earth.  Sure, there are pleasant, sunny days, cute things kids say, funny things animals do, and laughter, but the darkness is real and it is growing rapidly upon the Earth.  Our awareness of THIS FACT is the ticket to our detachment. Loving the world, loving our lives?  That is a deception in direct contrast to the word of Christ.  

The "Crazy" Side of Religion

 Wow... there's so much "crazy" going on in the world and in my head right now!  I was recently talking with a friend about the importance of faith.  She said "religious people get so crazy".  For one thing, I don't think of myself as "religious" in the common dogmatic sense.  I consider myself to be a truth seeker.  I get really claustrophobic with containers and limits.  Labels kill the possibility of higher understanding. God is complex, and while he does demand certain standards, he is vastly misunderstood.  That being said, looking through a narrow skope you could loosely peg me as "religious" and for the sake of energy saving not trying to explain my position, I will comply with that definition.  I can't deny that this path can, at times, make us a bit crazy.  It really does something to ones head when we become aware of the bigger picture.  Everyday the picture grows and we become accountable to God for living in His truth.  Why does this make us crazy?  Because it's hard to know His absolute truth, especially in these deceptive days (which have been compiling steadily and subtly for decades)  I've exposed myself to SO many ideas, prophesies, and perspectives.  People are having various dreams and open visions, religious scholars have their views and ideas, certain people are claiming to speak to Jesus, certain people are having visitations and out of body experiences where they claim to visit heaven or hell.  Messianic Jewish pastors are revealing mysteries of the Torah, and ancient information that seems absolutely critical.  The majority of people feel like we're living in the end times, while others are claiming authority to say we have hundreds of years left (Kat Kerr, ahem).  It's really cool, and really confusing at the same time.  How I feel about it doesn't matter.  My concern is, what is true?  My feeling is that we're in the end times.  I can't imagine this world in a hundred years!  It would be absolutely dreadful.  I am over this world as it is today.  Wars, sickness, human trafficking is huge, horrendous animal abuse, animal die offs, sink holes, earthquake activity has increased tremendously in the last hundred years, the devitalization of food, the pollution and mass chemicalizatiin of the air, water and land.  Climate change is undeniable, the humungous increase in sickness and disease. People are getting massacred for their faith. Violence is out of control, people can't get along or agree about anything.  Monsanto is taking over the entire food system.  I can hardly eat anything anymore!  Also, two of the biggest indicators are that Isreal is surrounded by her enemies, technology for the Mark of the Beast (microchip) is out and they're getting ready to mandate it.  Talks of "peace and security" are all over the political system.  Go read Revelation again guys...
  Personally, I have to believe Jesus is coming soon!  That is the ONLY good news going.  I'm just not interested in this world anymore.  Maybe I never was.  People still seem to be getting their kicks, but I'm like... really?  Huh...  I love people, but not like this.  Not in this reality.  We can't exist in a state of ignorance and just live our lives like nothing is happening.  Stuff is happening at an alarming rate!  The ONLY question that remains is, how much worse does it have to get??

  

Ps.  I am not even touching the "crazy" fact that people have been killing each other for "religious" reason for thousands of years. I am not responsible for the fact that early Christians didn't read their Bibles and actually believe what Jesus said.  It is clear.  Live by the sword die by the sword.  It is NOT mistakable.  So, that being said, who was responsible for Satans entrance into the Catholic church around the time of Constantine?  I don't know.  Crazy stuff happened and it was the fault of man, not God.  

God's Name is Elohim

 A  couple of months ago I wrote a post about dreams I've had where all I could remember is just a word or a name.  They echo through my dream so audibly, I can't ignore them.  So, one night the word was Elohim.  I looked up Elohim and saw that it was a Hebrew word for God, I assumed there were many, and there are a few.  I now believe "God" was revealing his NAME to me.  As in, this is how you should refer to ME.  Alan Horvath's video's (below) are blowing me away!  I'm learning SO much, and realizing how little I know at the same time.  It's pretty awesome.  I HIGHLY recommend watching his videos.  

                                       

In Retrospect

  In the last month or so I've immersed myself in information overload.  Looking back, I probably should have digested it before I even spoke, but that's not my nature.  No, I'm not a moderate person when it comes to information.  If there's something to be known I reach right down into the bowels of Hell to find it if I have to.  Not even thinking about whether I'm ready, or if it's safe.  I think of Eve being tempted in the garden of eden.  Would I have been tempted by the knowledge of good and evil?  Heck yah!  But apparently I didn't learn from her story, and many people don't.  We have to experience these things first hand.  I could see myself heading into a bad place, but still I had to know.  Knowledge can be used for good and it can turn evil.   I can see why many of Paul's writings (and others) were left out of the Bible.  They weren't meant for everyone.  Information becomes knowledge and is like a sword.  The more you obtain, the heavier the sword gets, but that does you no good if you don't know how to use the sword.  Learn from my failures and know that a little information--knowledge and a little know how are better than a lot of knowledge and little know how.   With that in mind, I'm not sure where I'll go from here, but I'm not going to go out of my way trying to convince anyone that the Illuminati is real and that Hinduism (New Age theology) is fast becoming the largest religion in the world (and it's not nearly as innocent and docile as it appears) and that there's some really unspeakably evil things happening in the world right now.  If you're interested, look into it a little but don't get all ocd like me... trust me.  Knowledge can be addictive to the point of being detrimental.  Curiosity killed the cat.  Contrariwise, ignorance is not bliss, but I think there's a happy in between that most of us will find suitable.  I'm still trying to find that balance.  Meantime,  I'm going to try and learn to use this sword that's too heavy to even pick up right now!  Oy...