A rant- then Let's Fly

One thing I'll never understand about people is their love affair with the superficial surface things in life.  They flee from a conversation with depth as if it were a swarm of wasps.  Preferring the strenuously boring safety of weather, sports, job updates, just the facts ma'am.  Borefest!   There's nothing more tiring for me than having to pull out the bag of "safe" questions to keep a dead conversation alive.  Like how's your family (I've never actually met), and how's your job going?

  People look at me crazy when I bring up world events that I believe could be fulfilling Bible prophecy and leading to the second coming of Jesus.  Can you imagine what the reality of this means?  It means that people are so content with this superficial, temporary life that they've given up on wondering why we're here, and the ultimate purpose of life.  They've given plenty of self imposed meaning to life, but they don't even try anymore.  Yesterday the google image was paying homage to the first women who went to space, somebody someonehymer.  The image was of a bunch of people floating up out of their seats.  To me it looked like the rapture, which was kind of exciting.  But the first women in space?  Is that supposed to be exciting by any stretch of the imagination?  Has anything exciting ever happened from our travels to space?  It's a bunch of dead planets with no oxygen.  Sorry, but that just doesn't do it for me.  I'm sleeping just thinking about it.  It's like thinking someday scientists are going to find the cure for something... (they haven't yet btw) and that excites people?  I just don't get it.  I guess I just wasn't made for here...

Let's Fly instead! 

Michael Gungor Band- Fly

Dream 3/?/15 -Sacrificial Love

My dreams are often prophetic, either in my personal life or in the bigger picture world scene.  Before my sister had her first child I had a dream of her at 3ish years old.  My sister was sick, and the exact details of the dream played out three years later.  Her daughter looked exactly as she did in my dream at three yrs old, curls and all.  My sister also had a major health scare at that time.

I've always dreamt about fights my husband and I would have ahead of time (lucky him;). 

  I rarely have nightmares or scary dreams but in March I had this dream:

I was in a big city on a bus or subway.  Demonic forces wanted my life.  They would seek me out of the crowds and try to grab me and strike me with a sword.  Everytime, they would nearly get me.  I would get off one bus and run to another, narrowly escaping death.  On one of the bus's was my current husband who had left me (in the dream).  He had become a slithering drunk.  He was no help whatsoever even though I was being severely attacked.  I got off that bus.  Onto another, and just as these demonic forces were about to kill me I woke up.  

Interpretation:  So, when I had this dream I thought my husband was sober (an ex alcoholic), but he wasn't.  He was just living a double life and lying to me everyday.  He was good too.  I'm a solid detective with supersonic senses, and while I did suspect things at times I let it go.  So, like a year and a half goes by when suddenly I discover he's been lying and drinking the whole time.  The fact that he "left me" in the dream and became a drunk probably meant that he left me emotionally (by sneaking around) and drinking.  Now, I understand lying and addiction go hand in hand.  But when you're married to an addict, life is crazy.  You don't have trust in your relationship.  That's right, a relationship without trust?  How can you do it?  I don't know!  I've been trying to figure that out;-).  Is this dream about the demons involved in this scenario?  Is it a warning dream to me?  I know our society paints this picture of everyone deserving so much more in relationships. And you need trust to survive, and once he "breaks" you he can never "fix" you.  But, I don't need my husband to "fix" me.  Whatever happened to selfless love?  What about loving the way Jesus did?  Sacrificial love.  Yes, this is a sacrificial love.  One that's aiming to kill me!  But it won't...

  Perhaps, the enemy is attacking my husband because his faith is weak.  Maybe he's using his weak faith to try and dismantle mine.  But guess what?  He doesn't know what's coming... 

Dream 5/17/15- Star of David

 I had a dream last night that seems significant.  I don't know exactly what it means but it's obviously very symbolic.  As a disclaimer, I hadn't previously known much about the star of David or the Islamic crescent moon symbol.  Looking it up will reveal a lot of diffent ideas, but in general I think we can assume the star of David represents Israel (the people, Israel, not just the country) and the crescent represents Islam.

Begin dream:  I am on a white boat by myself.  It's very sturdy, built like a sailboat, but there's no sails.  It has the power and speed of a motor boat, but there is no motor.  The boat is supernaturally propelling me across a large body of water.  I got the feeling a shark was chasing us (I say "us" because the Spirit of God was with me).  We got to the other side.  I switched sides of the boat and it propelled me back.  When it landed on the shore it landed me amongst a group of people I knew were Muslim.  One lady began to tell me how much money she would have to spend on fuel for her boat to get across the water and back.  I began to tell her about my boat, that required no fuel and got me across  and back in less than 30 minutes! She was listening, then all of a sudden in the darkening sky we all saw the star of David.  It was very large, and lit up like it was formed by other stars.  At the bottom right tip of the star was a small cresent, much like the Islamic symbol.  Usually their symbol is a large crescent and a little star at the bottom or in the middle.

 This was a huge star with a little crescent dangling off the bottom (I couldn't find an image like that).

The scene changed, and I was in a hotel (which felt like my house) and I was telling my sister about the star in the sky.  I pointed out the window and the star was even bigger!  It was ridiculously huge and I was like omg!  Look at it, it's huge!  But she wasn't interested.  She seemed distracted.  Like she was getting ready to go somewhere and this didn't really matter.  I was in shock at her non chalance.  Then I woke up.

They said to him, “We have had dreams, and there is no one to interpret them.” And Joseph said to them, “Do not interpretations belong to God? Please tell them to me.” Genesis 40:8

   I can only make stabs at the meaning of this dream.  God has not revealed the absolute interpretation:

 My sister represents the world, too busy with their own lives to see the signs in the heavens.  The hotel feeling like my house symbolizing my temporary residence on this Earth. I am on a boat propelled supernaturally by God because I believe in the Y'shua the Messiah.  Muslims are struggling without the truth or the real MESSIAH, BUT their symbol is in the sky, attatched to God's symbol.  He cares about them and he's sending me (representing a believer in Messiach)  to give them the gift of supernatural fuel, which is the truth?  Or is it a shift in powers?  

5/20/15- Clarification of interpretation:

For believers in Y'shua, our time seems short we're spreading the word in our last 15 minutes on this Earth.  For Jews and Muslims there is a journey ahead (I can only assume it's not going to be a pretty one), but on the horizon we will clearly see who dominates- God's chosen.  It will be clear to all.

 

As I was looking up symbols and meanings.. I stumbled across this dream.  Wow!   http://www.sparrowsbarn.com/h-43-heaven-dream-xliii

The Brilliance- Open Up

The Testimony

Back in 2011, this spoke to me.  I've come a long way since then, but to believe is to begin. A lot of people are here.  Deciphering the cost of a leap of faith.  I can only tell you from my personal experience that NOTHING in my previous life compares, or meant anything of true and lasting value...

Shavuot-Pentacost May 23-24th 2015

"I invoke heaven and Earth as reliable witnesses."

"May the bridegroom rejoice with the bride whom He has taken as His lot and may the bride rejoice with the husband of her youth while uttering words of praise."

Shavuot, otherwise known as Pentacost or Feast of Weeks is writhing with meaning, clues, shadows and types.  It is oozing with what in the world is happening here?  Is this speaking of the rapture or what?  I'm not saying it is, but this is imperative info that every Christian should be hip to in my opinion.  Sure, Pentacost was the the day God released the holy spirit on anyone who would believe, but what did it mean in the past, and how does the significance of all that we now know about Shavuot/Pentacost tie into the future?  

This article is strictly from a Jewish perspective and talks of the element of Marriage and Shavuot.

http://www.myjewishlearning.com/article/the-shavuot-marriage-contract/3/http://www.myjewishlearning.com/article/the-shavuot-marriage-contract/3/

This one goes into more detail:
http://www.hebrew4christians.com/Holidays/Spring_Holidays/Shavuot/shavuot.html

True Believer

"Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her … I will betroth you to me forever; I will betroth you in righteousness and justice, in love and compassion." (Hosea 2:14,19)

Come wayward bride!  Understand fate.  Observe the shallow shores upon which you dwell in restless confinement.  You who romanticize sin and cleave to it's grasp. Seek now, the one who humbly whispers from the deep. Purge darkness from your hearts.  Set your minds on heavenly sights.  Soon, the coming greatness shall descend upon the watchmen.  Who will he find waiting?

Brooke Fraser- C.S. Lewis Song

I hope there's a lot I don't know.  

Seek find express

Seek find express

Digress...

Seek find express

Seek find express

Digress...

What is necessary

Oh God

What are the boundries

Of your creation

What is the purpose 

Of your vision

To contain 

To liberate 

To reflect

What are the perametors

Of your light

The end is the beginning

  Perspective is everything.  For it to be the end of the world as we know it, is the most amazing thing that has ever happened.  Some people think it's fear talk, but those who wait for this and dream of it are not afraid.  Gods will be done!  The sooner the better...

Wake up oh sleepers

From the dead world

Wake up you sleepers

In your graves

Wake up oh sleepers marching 

Valiently to the clay

Today he whispers

Tomorrow he shouts

Wake up oh lovers

This is your time

To announce

Hope

Like a rope

To save

Wake up you rivers

And wake up the winds

Wake up faithful sun 

It begins

Ecoute- The beauty of change

Do you ever find yourself deeply immersed in something, inspired, rearing to go, making elaborate plans.  You think, I love this moment, the way I feel in it.  Maybe it will last.. forever.  Only to be getting over it before it's even over. You can see it leaving.  It's on it's way out, and you want to call it back, invite it to stay. You're holding on to it, knowing this is the pattern of your life, and potentially life itself.  You think about people you've known who have continued to live in a phase and you wonder how.  You've always just been passing through.  When you exit yet another realm of created self you wipe off the clutter of sight and sound.  You become quiet, clean and simple again.  You were a painting being made, and now you're a blank canvas again.  It was a beautiful picture.  You loved it's ethereal hues and poetic curvature.  The way the light danced through the wind and flowed through your hair.  The sounds of heaven rang in such a way, but as all things, we are being created every moment, every second.  If we're honest we can never stop being created.  We can never live in a moment too long, or it will begin to burn.  Like the brilliance of spring sun, summer sun lies heavy and thick.  We become cautious and seek shade and solace, which leads to other and new ventures.  We look back, usually only remembering the good in every moment, nomatter how bad it seemed sometimes.  It amazes me.  It comes as no surprise, that we move on, everytime, growing through, owning nothing, becoming all the things that are still unknown.  

Song Revolution

He not busy being born is busy dying

      -Bob Dylan

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ,he is a new creation. Old things have passed away behold, all things have become new. 

   1 Corinthians 5:17

 First there was breath, then there was sound.  Sound became song which became life... and we danced.  

I discovered some new music that rocks my socks off.  It's different, it's insane, it's weird, it's alive and it's SO infused with everything I find important these days.  I hope you can find yourself in it somehow too... 

First things first.. I've liked the band Gungor for a while, but didn't realize how much I liked the band Gungor.  If you've never heard of them you need to.  You also need to watch this documentary.  Essentially (as I gather it) they're attempting to portray creation from the perspective of the old testament and bring that potential of understanding to life through sound and words and layers of organic expression.  It's particularly interesting if 1- you've read the old testament and have a fascination with creation  2- if you listen with an open mind and 3- if you often find yourself meditating and reflecting on life and what this God truly is and just the very nature of our relationship with and to the one who made us into being and lives among us and within us.  What I like in particular, is that their style of worship is so natural.  It almost blurs the lines of secular and spiritual.  It doesn't portray a "religious" rule book spirit.  It doesn't form to the mold of what "Christian songs" should sound like, yet it demands a curiosity and a willingness to consider the source of all life.

A smaller sample:

This song from Hillsong United is organic, unpolished, vulnerable and wonderful:

John Mark McMillan's song Heart Runs makes me dance.. and it's just good.

The Liturgist are essentially Gungor under a different name.  Sneaky right?  I'm not obsessed, maybe a little...  

We sit with the understanding of the fullness of the darkness, tragedy and suffering in this world.  That understanding leads to a hope, and a faith... which is optimism in it's truest sense.

I recently discovered this one by The Brilliance.  So unique and natural..  A beautiful example of infusing God into a casual, relatable communion.  This song pretty much sums up the times we're living in, as well as the imperative of my thoughts.  Really, it's that encompassing.

Build Your Kingdom Here by the band Rend is so grassroots INSANE, and fun.  I love the concept.

And one more Gungor for good measure;-)  This is an absolute favorite... usually followed by the song We Will Run.

The Husband Dream

I had a dream last week that my husband was cheating on me with... me.  But the me he was cheating on me with was an over simplified, shallow, superficial shell of who I am.  Their affair was of a carnal nature as affairs usually are.  I remembered thinking I could never be her.  I could pretend to be her for a while, but how empty would that be?  I wanted peace in our relationship, but not at the cost of my soul.  So, he decided he was going to divorce me, and marry her.  He told her the reason is because I beat him over the head with the bible (but I also knew it was the shallow sex life).  We were all going to convene in the basement with our families and he was going to tell me the news.  I knew this because I was also her (a remnant of myself).  I couldn't believe he would leave everything that I am for everything that she isn't.  The dream ended with us all sitting there waiting for him to say something and I woke up.  

This dream was foretelling some issues my husband and I had over the weekend.  I won't go into detail.  We're going through the thick.. again.  Anyone else struggle with cyclical relationship issues? I'm sure we're not alone;-). It's hard though... Paul was right when he said relationships would bring unnecessary trouble!  But when it's good it's good right?  Sometimes I wish I could trade stories with someone else during these times.  I could experience their hangups and they could experience mine from a fresh perspective.  Sometimes these issues feel like such reruns.  Like, been here done that, bored as heck!  It's just the nature if two different minded people trying to sing in harmony.  Sometimes we just don't agree on the song or the sound and why it should be this way or that.  It's stupid but it's real.  I want the song to be deep, authentic and warm to touch.  I dislike, am repulsed by the shallow things of our modern age.  The era of  the sleazy, cheap and profane.