The Introvert Advantage

  My whole life I've been an introvert.  I've had periods where I came out of my shell and engaged more with the world, but deep down I was always naturally inclined to be in my own head, researching, dreaming, doing things in silence.  Most of my life this natural inclination has seemed like a curse.  I've always felt different, like an outsider.  I had to force myself to enjoy socializing.  Engaging with the world took more energy than it "should".  Caffeination was necessary...  unlike many introverts, I didn't beat myself up about it.  I didn't force myself to go out there and 'get in the game' and go against my natural inclinations too much, because on some level I knew the world was messed up.  The mentality was just off.  You know?
  It is only during this phase of my life that I recognize the advantage I have as an introvert.  First of all it is well documented in the Bible that God hates the world (worldly mentality, customs, celebrations, aspirations).  He makes it very clear that this Earth world is ruled by Satan the deceiver, and that in order to LIVE in HIM we have to forsake the "world", forsake the superficial "lives" we worked so hard to attain and follow HIM.  He wants us to live an entirely different life than the "world".  Introverts.. hello!  Ok, so we naturally want to withdraw from the world.  And because we do this we're more likely to acknowledge and get to know God.  There's certainly a place for the extrovert who knows God.  I mean let's be real, if we had to rely on introverts to get the word out Christianity wouldn't exist today!  Hah.. but back to the introvert advantage here.  Introverts are more likely to have a natural detachment from the world and this is a essential.  He is returning for a spotless Bride, who takes the time to get to know him.  I love my family and my cat but I am SO out of here like lightning if the opportunity presents itself.  C'ya!  Attached to NO THING.  This world brings me little pleasure.  I dwell in reality.  The reality is that we are living in darkness on the Earth.  Sure, there are pleasant, sunny days, cute things kids say, funny things animals do, and laughter, but the darkness is real and it is growing rapidly upon the Earth.  Our awareness of THIS FACT is the ticket to our detachment. Loving the world, loving our lives?  That is a deception in direct contrast to the word of Christ.  

The "Crazy" Side of Religion

 Wow... there's so much "crazy" going on in the world and in my head right now!  I was recently talking with a friend about the importance of faith.  She said "religious people get so crazy".  For one thing, I don't think of myself as "religious" in the common dogmatic sense.  I consider myself to be a truth seeker.  I get really claustrophobic with containers and limits.  Labels kill the possibility of higher understanding. God is complex, and while he does demand certain standards, he is vastly misunderstood.  That being said, looking through a narrow skope you could loosely peg me as "religious" and for the sake of energy saving not trying to explain my position, I will comply with that definition.  I can't deny that this path can, at times, make us a bit crazy.  It really does something to ones head when we become aware of the bigger picture.  Everyday the picture grows and we become accountable to God for living in His truth.  Why does this make us crazy?  Because it's hard to know His absolute truth, especially in these deceptive days (which have been compiling steadily and subtly for decades)  I've exposed myself to SO many ideas, prophesies, and perspectives.  People are having various dreams and open visions, religious scholars have their views and ideas, certain people are claiming to speak to Jesus, certain people are having visitations and out of body experiences where they claim to visit heaven or hell.  Messianic Jewish pastors are revealing mysteries of the Torah, and ancient information that seems absolutely critical.  The majority of people feel like we're living in the end times, while others are claiming authority to say we have hundreds of years left (Kat Kerr, ahem).  It's really cool, and really confusing at the same time.  How I feel about it doesn't matter.  My concern is, what is true?  My feeling is that we're in the end times.  I can't imagine this world in a hundred years!  It would be absolutely dreadful.  I am over this world as it is today.  Wars, sickness, human trafficking is huge, horrendous animal abuse, animal die offs, sink holes, earthquake activity has increased tremendously in the last hundred years, the devitalization of food, the pollution and mass chemicalizatiin of the air, water and land.  Climate change is undeniable, the humungous increase in sickness and disease. People are getting massacred for their faith. Violence is out of control, people can't get along or agree about anything.  Monsanto is taking over the entire food system.  I can hardly eat anything anymore!  Also, two of the biggest indicators are that Isreal is surrounded by her enemies, technology for the Mark of the Beast (microchip) is out and they're getting ready to mandate it.  Talks of "peace and security" are all over the political system.  Go read Revelation again guys...
  Personally, I have to believe Jesus is coming soon!  That is the ONLY good news going.  I'm just not interested in this world anymore.  Maybe I never was.  People still seem to be getting their kicks, but I'm like... really?  Huh...  I love people, but not like this.  Not in this reality.  We can't exist in a state of ignorance and just live our lives like nothing is happening.  Stuff is happening at an alarming rate!  The ONLY question that remains is, how much worse does it have to get??

  

Ps.  I am not even touching the "crazy" fact that people have been killing each other for "religious" reason for thousands of years. I am not responsible for the fact that early Christians didn't read their Bibles and actually believe what Jesus said.  It is clear.  Live by the sword die by the sword.  It is NOT mistakable.  So, that being said, who was responsible for Satans entrance into the Catholic church around the time of Constantine?  I don't know.  Crazy stuff happened and it was the fault of man, not God.  

God's Name is Elohim

 A  couple of months ago I wrote a post about dreams I've had where all I could remember is just a word or a name.  They echo through my dream so audibly, I can't ignore them.  So, one night the word was Elohim.  I looked up Elohim and saw that it was a Hebrew word for God, I assumed there were many, and there are a few.  I now believe "God" was revealing his NAME to me.  As in, this is how you should refer to ME.  Alan Horvath's video's (below) are blowing me away!  I'm learning SO much, and realizing how little I know at the same time.  It's pretty awesome.  I HIGHLY recommend watching his videos.  

                                       

In Retrospect

  In the last month or so I've immersed myself in information overload.  Looking back, I probably should have digested it before I even spoke, but that's not my nature.  No, I'm not a moderate person when it comes to information.  If there's something to be known I reach right down into the bowels of Hell to find it if I have to.  Not even thinking about whether I'm ready, or if it's safe.  I think of Eve being tempted in the garden of eden.  Would I have been tempted by the knowledge of good and evil?  Heck yah!  But apparently I didn't learn from her story, and many people don't.  We have to experience these things first hand.  I could see myself heading into a bad place, but still I had to know.  Knowledge can be used for good and it can turn evil.   I can see why many of Paul's writings (and others) were left out of the Bible.  They weren't meant for everyone.  Information becomes knowledge and is like a sword.  The more you obtain, the heavier the sword gets, but that does you no good if you don't know how to use the sword.  Learn from my failures and know that a little information--knowledge and a little know how are better than a lot of knowledge and little know how.   With that in mind, I'm not sure where I'll go from here, but I'm not going to go out of my way trying to convince anyone that the Illuminati is real and that Hinduism (New Age theology) is fast becoming the largest religion in the world (and it's not nearly as innocent and docile as it appears) and that there's some really unspeakably evil things happening in the world right now.  If you're interested, look into it a little but don't get all ocd like me... trust me.  Knowledge can be addictive to the point of being detrimental.  Curiosity killed the cat.  Contrariwise, ignorance is not bliss, but I think there's a happy in between that most of us will find suitable.  I'm still trying to find that balance.  Meantime,  I'm going to try and learn to use this sword that's too heavy to even pick up right now!  Oy...

A snapshot of my mind...

It is possible to go crazy.  Sometimes information is like a drug.  It's adrenalin, and addiction.  I taste a little and I need more!  I need to know everything right this second!  I'm heading down a hundred roads at one time, I will die without the truth (yes, I'm extreme), and I will stop at nothing until I have attained it!!!  Wait for it... burn out.  Some people are better at information management.  A little at a time style.  A little everyday even.  I feel like I have years of catch up after years of nonsense.  Time might be short, it might not.  But, what if?