My Church.. A Conversation Amongst the Ruins

So it's Sunday.  I did not go to church today as I often don't.  I just want to preface that I have nothing against church attendence.  I think it's a great and healthy habit. For many people the only scripture they will ever hear will come from church sermons and worship music can be very powerful and healing...

The reason I do not attend church regularly is because 1) I need one day a week to fully relax and rejuvenate.  This day is it for me. 2) I feel like I don't learn very much in church.  The comradery can be nice if I'm in the mood for that, but as an introvert I feel more fulfilled giving myself a day of just me and God.  3) As an introvert, being blasted with a concert every Sunday (modern worship practices) can be very draining to my energy.  3.5) I think worship, reverence for God and getting in the spirit are just as possible (if not more so) in silence and stillness.  4) The church experience can be very repetetive in sequence, there's a lot of "filler" talk and the message usually borders on the bubblegum side of things.  5) I want to go deeper into learning without an hour long sermon on one segment of a topic.  6).   I don't want a "new age" encouragement/self help speech.  7) I only have so much time to really learn so my time learning is valuable.  I learn better by myself and seeking out explanations for things I don't understand  through my own searching. 

 8) I appreciate hearing many different angles on all things important whether it's biblical, health related, political... I want to be well versed on all sides of an issue so I can decide for myself what I think.  

I just want to reiterate that  I take no issue with church sermons.  I do go to church occasionally, I watch sermons on t.v, I'll listen to podcasts, radio you name it.  I just like to mix up my sources of info.  For me it's the same concept as diversity in the diet for different nutrients.  Ideas are nutrients and we take them in and digest them and assimilate, just like physical nutrients. I find that approaching things this way allows me to be open to what God is speaking TO ME directly.  If I wake up and he leads me to a link to a conversation, or suddenly I turn on the radio and hear something that answers a question I've been trying to get to the bottom of... It leaves more room for spontaneous answers than just routinly attending one church and hearing the ministry of one preacher.  I never want to discourage anyone from going to church if it is enriching for you by all means keep doing it! I'm glad the churches are there for sure and have respect for what they do.  On this Sunday morning I was led to this conversation.  An Evening of Eschatology.  As I'm very interested in knowing what will be happening in these end times and what to expect as much as humanely possible.  I am gleaning ideas from all sources.  I know 99.9999% of people won't sit through this video (probably because they're all routinely watching football all day) but I was spellbound the WHOLE time.  I love the lighthearted nature and perspective of each of these men.  I sense a genuine seeker and biblical scholar in each of them.  For some reason the video doen't appear on the iphone so there is a link as well underneath the video.  I dare you to sit through 16 minutes of it just to get a taste;-) Cheers!  

http://youtu.be/ws0vbT4Yu2s

Purpose Reality Awakening

I came to God because the more I observed the reality of the world the more overwhelmed with anguish I became.  It felt like God put X-ray glasses on me and suddenly I could see everything that was happening in the world.  The good, the bad, and the absolutely horrendous. I saw masses of animals being abused and tortured and people laughing about it, I saw children's lives given to sex slavery and abuse across the globe and nobody does anything about it, I saw the corruption of money and the havoc it wreaks on everyone through the food system and through the medical system.  I saw countries and religions and political groups at war.  I saw men worshipping satan and worse, I saw American youth being brainwashed into satanic worship without even knowing it through popular music and media.  I saw the greed, the hate and violence, the delusion of the new age, the delusion of vanity, the delusion of success and accomplishment, the delusion of wealth.  I saw the state of the Earth, the animals being forced out of their natural habitat and massive death through corporate takeover and drought.  I saw the Earth groaning and withering covered in the sludge of mankinds careless pusuits. I realized nobody was going to come in and save the Earth.  I realized it was going to die.   I saw what was coming...

  The more I sought God through nightly prayer/meditation/conversation, the more he would reveal to me and consequently the more urgently I sought answers and in seeking the answers clues (and revelations) started showing up.  Now, in my earthly life I'm a pretty solid detective, but God's language often requires knowledge of him.  We find that knowledge from reading his book, his testimony, HIS word.  And so, like any good detective I began reading it,  and I continue to read it, searching for clues and getting to know him.  In getting to know him I realized that the only way out of this world is through him and that my only true puropse here on this Earth at this time is to spread seeds of truth in the hopes of opening eyes. I realized who I truly am here in knowing what this is all about.  So many people see the trees and neglect the forrest.  I'm here in an attempt to show them the forrest so they too will wake up to the truth of who they are, who God is and the purpose of it all.

Joy comes with the morning

Dreams are a common subject around my house.  Namely because I have many vivid dreams, often.  In conversation about a co-worker of Rob's and his "dream" I thought of the world version of "a dream".  I asked what is your dream?  He said "shoot, it's been so long since I've thought about that.  What's yours"?  My dream is that the rapture 'where Jesus comes out of the clouds and calls his people up to be with him' is real and it happens very soon.  There are things that could be taken away from me in my life that would make it more difficult to survive, but there is nothing that could be added to my life that would make it worth wanting to stay here longer.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal or depressed. I just happen to know that life on the other side far exceeds anything that is possible here.  My knowledge of the pervasive darkness of this world could never let me rest easy in this world or enjoy it fully.  I have joy in the hope of tomorrow but my joy comes with the morning.  As in the new dawn, the new era of man void of evil.  In this world I can see how the darkness exists to seperate the dark from the light.  It is meant for our knowledge (those who choose light), or our condemnation (those who choose darkness).  I know which side I'm on, and  I get it.  There are things still unbeknownst to me about the infinite nature of God's plan for us but dark vs. light.. I've got that one;-).  My dream is a world without pain, hatred and fear.  My dream is an entirely new and different world.  Things about this world such as cobblestone streets, cottages and pastures in old world Europe would exist.  All of the wonderful and amazing animals would exist.  Coffee shops and bakeries would exist and I would be able to eat gluten.  The end...

Pharmaceuticals Faith and Healing

So, I have two sides.  The one that is eccentrically free spirited, and the one that is monastically serious.  I cannot explain myself so you get what you get.  Today I want to talk about something, an influence that is flooding the people of this world in what I believe to be a very  deceptive and destructive way.  I recently noticed the prevelence of common people pushing vaccine propaganda at an alarming rate.  To me, this registered as "oh my, the hypnotic brainwashing must be rising".  I don't say this in a way to demean the intelligence of the people under  it's influence.  My only purpose is to shed light on what is actually happening on a scale that is infinitely larger than we even know.  Let me first point out that I have never been a conspiracy theorist and I willingly admit my prior judgement of those who would submit their time to these theories.  Without the context of the Bible these theories  can become somewhat deletarious in their own right.  So I started reading up on vaccines (a modality I've avoided intuitively as I do most medical intervention).  I researched vaccine ingredients which ranged from aborted human cell lines to mouse brains to dog kidney to cow liver to pig pancrease... and I was startled thinking about the pharmaceutical industry as a whole.  All of these animals being tortured and torn apart in the name of experimental medicine just pained my heart.  I already know that they torture and test medicines on monkeys and was deeply disturbed by it.  I thought to myself all of this is done in the name of a "cure" that never happens.  At best medical drugs and procedures might prolong life a little while but is it worth the cost of all the suffering it incurs?  So millions of dollars are raised by well meaning people who support "medical research" which is essentially animal torture.  I thought, these practices resemble sourcery and witchcraft in so many ways.  Who is really behind all of this?  What kind of evil could justify this common practice?  Let us not forget that God only permitted meat eating after the flood and in times of famine, as food, for nourishment.  What does it say about us that we live in times of plenty yet we inflict this degree of harm on God's creatures?  The saddest part of the whole thing is that 99% of disease is preventable with diet, detox and lifestyle factors (gmo foods, environmental toxins and pesticides, soil depletion... aside.  There is nothing the common person can do about this assault on the natural world and so, with this phenomenon being present I don't care if you're Steve Jobs or the president of the united states, if natural means can't cure you neither can medical intervention).  I believe this was predicted to happen in Revelations.  I think the trumpet was sounded and we (who are watching) are witnessing it.

 Then I read up on the alarming incidence of vaccine injuries.  The cdc lies and tries to cover up what is happening.  They try to act like vaccine injury is so uncommen.  It's not uncommon at all.  It's actually very common and families are suffering terribly from the implications not only from their children becoming severely afflicted with life altering diseases, but without funding or aid because nobody will admit it was the vaccines that caused the injuries.  I get upset everytime I talk about it.  I began to seriously question the entire medical establishment (disclaimer: I know there are many good hearted and well meaning people who work in the medical feild and too often they are also victims of the lies that are sent down through the chain of upper management.  It's not their fault.  But we have to realize everyone has a boss.  Nurses and doctors are being decieved in the same way their patients are).  The third angle is that the vaccines actually mutate cells and dna.  They've been linked to cancer and autoimmune disease accross the board.  The information is out there, it's just not on the pharmaceutical publications who's faulty "science" is bought by big pharma.  Here is the movie trailer to the film Bought.  I highly recommend everyone watch it:

 The sad thing is that people are so dependent, addicted even to the patient/doctor relationship, to the drugs, to submitting their health, bodies and faith to the medical system that they're clueless when faced with the reality of an alternative.  What's the alternative?  The alternative is placing a great emphasis on our health.  The alternative is realizing that God made us and he made the Earth and he made everything the way it is.

Psalm 139: 13-16

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

 The alternative is placing our faith BACK into the hands of the one who created us.  The alternative is making space in our minds for the possibility that we are provided with everything we need to heal ourselves with God's approval.  The alternative is to stop eating all the man made garbage and start eating real food provided here for us by God.  The alternative is educating ourselves about health instead of submitting ourselves to the death and disease industry!  The alternative is becoming conscious and aware in this time of deception.  We need to know who we can trust and who we should become very catious of.

   People of faith are often just as sold on the pharmaceutical industry as anyone.  We need to ask ourselves did Jesus send anyone to the doctor?  Did he so much as mention the need for a doctor?  No, he clearly refers to himself as the "doctor" they need.

Matthew 9:12

But when he heard it, he said, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are 
sick.

I know people love to be lukewarm on this topic like yeah, doctors are a necessary evil...  I think doctors are helpful in cases of broken bones or giving antibiotocs or pain killers when other natural methods fail but the intervention rarely stops there.  A person is chastised for not seeking medical help regularly.  The new "doctor" represents a multibillion dollar industry that very much resembles a machine.  It's not right... and that brings us to my next post.  Hint:  Pharmakeia in the Bible.  Exciting stuff!  Everything I'm talking about is just a fraction of a piece in the great puzzle, but is nevertheless just as important as every other piece.  

2.5 Years, Still Not Sick!!

Just wanted to pop in to say it's been 2.5 years since I've been sick!  No head colds or stomach flu's to speak of.  My husband's been sick a few times and amazingly I didn't catch any of it.  There have been a few times I thought I was getting sick, but my immune system kicked in and it just didn't happen.. THANK GOD for revealing the power of Green Smoothies to me!  I consider this to be a true miracle.

A Piece of Me

It is little known what happened to me after high school or how I became the me that I am...

  When I graduated from high school I didn't have high aspirations.  It wasn't from the drugs and crazy hippied out 60's peace love and psychedelic times I attempted to recreate (as some might assume;).  Perhaps these experiences were instrumental in awakening my mind on levels that I cannot portray in words,  but they didn't turn me into a burn out or anything.  I already was the way I was.  Looking around I saw that college (a lifestyle I had no interest in) paved the way for a myriad of jobs (I had no interest in) then ultimately led to marriage and baby making (which alas, I had no interest in).  I had two interests, getting healthy through natural means as I was struggling with chronic fatigue and depression, and understanding the truth of my existence.  I considered becoming an herbalist or a nun, but I didn't know if herbs worked and I didn't know God's identity.  I didn't know if God was the God of Catholicism, Buddhism, Judaism, Christianity, Islam or metaphysics.  Was he the God of New Ageism?  Was he the God of all religions or was God even a consious thinking being?  How could I know?  Needless to say, I wasn't about to just flip the dice and make a decision.  So I carried on researching health, trying different diets, herbs, and modalities for healing meanwhile searching for God on the side.  Sometimes I'd think I'd figured it out, then the years would show me otherwise.  Eventually, I came across raw foods and simultaneously found an amazing bioelectric acupuncturist.  Really what she did was diagnose the weak areas of my body and give me homepathic combination formulas to move energies in those weak or congested areas.  The combo of diet and remedies proved successful and I gradually scraped and grappled and pulled myself out of the hole I was in.   My diet continued to evolve and so did my search for truth. I began drinking coffee and that helped exponentially! I continued to chop wood and carry water so to speak with my job, as financial well being didn't even register as a necessity for me untill I entered into my first encounter with a real relationship.  I had only experienced sort of dysfunctional relationships prior to this, probably due to  where I lived for one (a lack of diversity or like minded people) and for two I was just sort of "out there" compared to the "normality" of society.  I didn't relate to people on the normal everyday level, and I wasn't into the standard bar scene or party lifestyle that typically defines ones early 20's.  Luckily my partner was a good balance of being able to be "out there" with me and also be very grounded in the world.  I knew I needed that influence and so we meshed and we continue to mesh to this day.  I've definitely become more adaptable and learned how to relate to people on their level.  I keep my distance from societal norms and consider my solitude my monestary.  Although we did succumb to the normality of getting married it felt very foreign and weird to me.  I still think it's weird to be "married" to someone.  I guess I'm still "out there" in many ways but I've come to a peace of realising that I have always been in this world but never of it.  I've realized the truth that God IS the God of the Bible, and that all of my previous thoughts about God bordered on attempting to creating God in my image, making him who I wanted him to be.  All I can say is that it was a culmination of proofs that coincided on my behalf at the right time.  I'm glad I never became a nun.  I don't attend church regularly.  I read the Bible.  I talk to God daily.  He speaks in dreams, and revelations and conscious downloads.  I am aware of and accept my mortality, and trust that God will take me at my appointed time, but know how to take care of my body while I'm here.  I guess I've come along way!  I continue to evolve in my understanding of God's plan for all of us.  I seek this understanding, clarity and discernment of truth with ferver.  I need to go crazy sometimes.  I can't fit into a box if I tried.  I can't do what people are "suppose to do".  I'm not a follower of anyone but the maker of the universe.  I don't have complete peace in my soul but I long for it, which reminds me of the song:

 

Moving on, c'mon c'mon

Chachacha hurra hurra... I think it's pretty ridiculous to stuff ourselves into a freaking stereotype.  But then, I realize that I've done it before.  The stupidity of the old self shines on like a drunk diamond for the world to scoff at.  Drunk diamonds suck, I'm not here to argue, but can't we just realize that moving on is where it's at?  I wanna be where it's at and I will be because I move on like lightning.  Yesterday?  Means nothing to me.  Not who I was or who you were.  It's over, done, gone...are we STILL talking about it?  What are we talking about?  I already forgot because it was SO long ago.  

Two For One

It could be said that those with the least in life know the most.  It could easily be concluded that those who lead easy lives lack understanding.  Wisdom trumps intelligence any day of the week.  The silent ones teach while teachers lead followers astray.  Doctors destroy lives.  The epitome of delusion is the merger of religion and politics.  Followers always fail.  Facts are feelings.  Frowns are smiles upside down.  Cats are cuddles and sadness is happiness upside down.

The Inevitable Exhaustion

This life has exhausted me.  The more we realize, the less we say.  I guess that's why God speaks so little.  Random thoughts.  Sometimes I search for answers.  Sometimes I find moments that have answers.  Time fades, nothing lasts.  Eternity... I heard that people in China are getting barcodes.  What will be the fate of their babies?  What mindset can currently bring babies into this world?  The dreadful future that we anticipate.  We who see and feel the things to come.  I am a close friend of alienation.  There is nowhere here I belong.  Looking around I can see that is for the best.  I leap for joy like a happy goat (the ones we never see, the ones who don't live in cages, like savage prisoners) knowing I follow nobody.  I believe in Jesus.  He's right for me.  I have abandoned my search for happiness in pursuit of truth.  In my mind is a desert of solitude.  In my eye, a thorny cactus of catastrophy, blood and pain.  I am tired.  No doubt.  These are my thoughts.  I can't ignore them.  I can't think "happy thoughts" to dissolve them.  Afterall "don't you know that happiness, will make you cry"?  Animals suffer.  Women suffer.  Children suffer.  You and I will suffer too.  This is not a feel good post, or a feel good blog.  I'm not your feel good friend!  I'm gonna tell it like it is.  Reality is what I'm after.  Crystal clear realism.  

Over A Year Later, Still Not Sick!

Wow... am I consistent or what?  Hah!  Well guess what?  It's been a year and a half and I STILL haven't been sick!!  That's right, green smoothies are my new besties.  

Green Mango Love

1 Frozen Banana

1C Frozen Mango

2C Spinach

3 Kale Leaves (optional)

1tsp Spirulina

Squirt Vanilla Stevia

Blend.

Optional:

1Scoop Hemp Protein

1tsp Truly C Vitamin C Powder (made from Acerola cherries)

1tsp Earth Powder from Healthforce Nutritionals

1tsp Matcha Power (Green Tea)

BAM!  Do something good for yourself and replace your cooked, heavy, dead breakfast with one of these babies!  Tell me how you feel:-))))