This life has exhausted me. The more we realize, the less we say. I guess that's why God speaks so little. Random thoughts. Sometimes I search for answers. Sometimes I find moments that have answers. Time fades, nothing lasts. Eternity... I heard that people in China are getting barcodes. What will be the fate of their babies? What mindset can currently bring babies into this world? The dreadful future that we anticipate. We who see and feel the things to come. I am a close friend of alienation. There is nowhere here I belong. Looking around I can see that is for the best. I leap for joy like a happy goat (the ones we never see, the ones who don't live in cages, like savage prisoners) knowing I follow nobody. I believe in Jesus. He's right for me. I have abandoned my search for happiness in pursuit of truth. In my mind is a desert of solitude. In my eye, a thorny cactus of catastrophy, blood and pain. I am tired. No doubt. These are my thoughts. I can't ignore them. I can't think "happy thoughts" to dissolve them. Afterall "don't you know that happiness, will make you cry"? Animals suffer. Women suffer. Children suffer. You and I will suffer too. This is not a feel good post, or a feel good blog. I'm not your feel good friend! I'm gonna tell it like it is. Reality is what I'm after. Crystal clear realism.
